Dizzy as always

Hi journal,

I've decided to write here because I use this blog so little.

Well I'm down to my last two weeks in Arlington, Virginia.  The internship has been really great.
I hope to pass the FSOT exam in February.  I still have second thoughts about becoming a foreign service officer.  Sometimes I feel like my body needs to catch up to the reality of my life.

But I've been so good at avoiding emotions and keeping myself emotionally neutral that I feel... incomplete.  I often wonder if there is something wrong with me?  I've been depriving myself of genuine emotions for such a long time, that I don't know how or what to feel at times.

Maybe I'm complaining about nothing and my remedy is all too easy.  Namely falling in love, having sex, and simply living in the moment and letting go of fear.  Perhaps that's all that I need to feel like "myself."

I keep on having memories of being abroad.  I wonder if the memories mean something?  I just remembered being in Grenoble and looking out upon the mountains.  I'm still debating if I shouldn't return to mainland France and wait to experience a tropical climate if I'm accepted for the Peace Corps?

Oh, man... I'm also a little tenuous about my trip back to Georgia on Greyhound.  I have faith in Greyhound, but it may be too little since I haven't traveled with them in four years.  This will definitely be a hallmark trip.

Well, Journal, I'm signing off.

Cheers,
Aaron

Je veux enseigner en Guyane

Bonjour, ça fait longtemps depuis mon dernier post.  J'habite maintenant à Arlington en Virginie.  Je fais un stage dans le Foreign Service Institute.  L'année prochaine j'espère d'aller en Guyane pour enseigner l'anglais.  Je crois que l'expérience sera constructive pour moi.  J'attends encore que l'application soit disponible sur le site-web de l'Ambassade française.

Super

I returned from France June 30th in the evening at New York City. My nine months in France were full of experiences that I could not have had anywhere else in the world. I'm really grateful that I was chosen to teach in France. I hope to do it a second time.

I'm ashamed that I didn't record more on this site, but I wrote more on www.livejournal.com.

I also have pictures that I can post.

If anyone between 20 and 30 would like to teach English in France for 7 or 9 months then I encourage them to do it!